28 December 2015

Happy 41st Month

It has been a really fun and exciting journey with you

and I really hope that this will go on and on

Can't believe how time flies

how so many things just happened

good and bad

pleasant or maybe not so

things just pass by

and here we are

41 months together

I'm just glad that how this relationship allows me to grow as a person

and allowed us to grow as a couple

this 3 years will never be the same should we have not meet each other

So now let us cheer and let us celebrate

for this is only the first 41 months

may there be more 41 months to go

and even more 41 months to expect

Thank you so much & I love you

27 December 2015

Oh hey, Merry Christmas!

(a little late, I know)

I can't remember exactly how my last year's Christmas was

but I sure am enjoying this year's

I spent my Christmas this year with my girlfriend's family

and boy oh boy do they spoil me with food

I can't really recall when was the last time I really celebrated this special occasion

I do think that this year is the one to remember

I also believe this year is the year that I actually took an effort to buy something for her

well

I didn't really plan much out and it wasn't wrap in something fancy

but I do hope that it is a stepping stone for me in the future

Free food,

Game from my best friend,

and a new phone cover coming soon from the other homie,

Gosh

why is it so different from last year's?

I really don't know!

but I am really enjoying it so far!

p/s: Not to forget the Secret Santa project early this month with my colleagues. Just few weeks into my job and I already loving it

Too bad most of them are leaving

but at least we had a really good time together!

23 December 2015

My life is changing and I don't know how to react to it

Not long ago I told myself that I'll now be more open to things

emotionally open that is

to accept literature or creation of art

to allow myself to experience things and more importantly, feel things

and I'm not ashamed to say that one of the way is to enjoy video games

So I've installed Steam on my new Gaming Laptop and guess what

It's Winter Sale

So this means that I've bought few titles for myself to enjoy them

to savior them

I just hope that the experience will be a positive one

Few minutes into Mirror's Edge and I'm already experiencing the breathtaking action of Parkour

Few minutes into Transistor and I'm already appreciating the soundtrack and the art

Gosh I'm excited

after a long time

22 December 2015

So today was kinda chill day

Lover the fact that I've managed to send out few emails

Which I'm really proud of myself

I guess I'm starting to really do something

Rather than just doing nothing at the office 

Watching show after show

Playing games after games. 

On the flip side,

There might be a chance for me to minimize the damage 

This is very important for me since now there is no way for me to resolve the problem totally, at least I'll want to keep it at minimum. 

Have not disclose to anyone yet since things never go the way I announced it to the world.

Oh well

I've learned to keep things to myself

Nothing good ever happened after I tell everyone, that's for sure.

Oh and I met a new friend today

Someone called Jennifer 

Cheerful girl, not those quiet type

Can totally see we could be friends

But you'll never know

Maybe I'll never see her again

Haha

20 December 2015

I think from time to time, life reminds you that things aren't as bad as it seems like

I was down, and I was depressed

but then life still tells me that sometimes I just forgot to open my eyes

and just realized how there are still some people around me care for me

I guess this is something that I really have to reflect on

and I sad? or am I just lonely?

do I require people's accompany or do I really just want to be left alone

things like this are really hard to think about

but still I guess its necessary

Just yesterday I get to have a long day out with my girlfriend

and I'm grateful that she is there to really make my day

Although I can obviously tell that she is trying really hard

but then again it isn't really her fault

and I shouldn't put any blame on her

She is trying really hard

so then what does that speak of me?

Should I just keep feeling down and depressed?

or should I just be awesome instead?

I mean, come on

I'm sure life isn't that bad

The worst has already happen

what's next?

and no, that is not a challenge

so please don't.

kthxbye

here's a cake to make you feel better

18 December 2015

Have I reached what I call, the low part of my life?

I have not have fun stuff happen in my life

and I have not been happy for some time

Time to time when I laugh at things deep down I know I'm not happy at all

Is this what they call Depression? or am I just not happy

am I just hoping to find happiness, or am I basically just bored

I do not know

What I do know is my life for the next few months will be tough

and I hope I can get through it without much of a problem

In search of happiness

It's a tough journey, but I hope that I'll seek what I want in the end.

16 December 2015

Walking home is a very interesting experience, at least to me

To be honest I kind of like walking home

even though it can be quite tiring to do so

But at least I get to slow down my pace and really check out the stuff around me.

It's really been a while since I just slow and and check things out

really look at the things surround me and take my time to observe them

I know it sounds silly but hey, I really enjoy it

Just today I've decided to walk home simply because the bus was too full

It was really calming and chilling

Music in my ears and eyes on the road

there weren't really anything else that bothered me while I was on my way home

Only when I slow down, I realized how things around me have changed
I didn't realized that the whole area was torn down
I didn't realized the whole area was wiped clean
leaving only yellow mud and traces of evidences that there were once a wild jungle there
leaving only mortars and scrapes of junks laying around telling us there were once a busy complex there

sigh

Funny how I only get to really slow down things once in a while

When life gets busier

you really need to make the effort to slow down

It ain't easy but what is, right?

15 December 2015

I'm back!

Oh good Lord when was my last entry? July?

I have this problem..

when I don't write, I have tons of ideas floating into my head like how a dam opens up

but when I'm sitting infront of my laptop the ideas dry up like a well in the Sahara Desert.

Anyways,

few things happened recently

First of all I got a job,

No longer a student nor an unemployed

I'm working a job that I love-ish and Youtube/Facebook in the office,

How fun

Oh and I like my colleagues 

Fun people to hang out with, always invite me to tag along for dinner and stuff

It's really weird after all these while having your dinner by yourself

and people start inviting you for dinner.

I really enjoy these moments and although they're likely to change soon in the future

I still hope some things stay the same.

Secondly 

I got my laptop replaced

and Dammmmnnn it is fun to have a laptop back again.

Playing League Of Legends is something I definitely missed after all these months.

Added few games into my wshlist and hope this baby doesn't disappoint me.