28 April 2015

Three years and one extra semester

That is my journey

and today

the journey is finally put to the end

just like a story that ends with a fullstop

I have finally completed my final paper for my degree

Yes

I know I've mentioned this a lot of times

but still!

Everything is so unbelievable! 

All what is left now is waiting and waiting

planning and planning

and pray hard that my head won't rust while I'm at the state.

27 April 2015

It was a big day yesterday

not for me at least

but it's closely related to me 

Yesterday was the convocation of my uni

a supposing-ly MY convocation to be exact

but oh well I missed it just so I won't be too stress for my final year

Anyways

A big congratulation to all my friends

I'm glad that you all made it to the end

and receiving your cert (pshhh..it's empty) on the stage

It has been a great honor to know all of you

and I sincerely wish you guys all the best in the future

and while I'm busying preparing for my last paper

I'm sure you guys are all out there celebrating

*sobs*

Truth to be told

I'm not sure if I want to attend my convo next year

everything seems so..messy and filled with tons of people

not to forget the endless waiting

Not sure if it's something that my parents could endure

hue

Oh well

One more day to the last paper (hopefully) of my degree life

and one day closer to when I'll leave Malaysia for my journey to the west

Hope all is well

25 April 2015

Allow me to tell you today is one of the "exciting" day in my uni life

and to think that I am just one more paper away from graduating...geez

Aside that the librarian yelling at me for bringing in some packet onigiri into the library

most of the interesting stuff happened in the exam hall

So I was taking my PSY340 Human Factors examination

and it is a open book exam

what this means is that we can bring in any book/slides/journals that we wanted to

as long as it is in hardcopy form

Seeing that the lecturer have already provided us some tips for the exam

(and the fact that my printer ran out of print)

I decided to only print few of the slides and tried to get away with it

Yeah

Things were going so well until it happen

As I sat down on my desk preparing to answer this paper

I told myself "Yeah I'm so going to ace it"

seeing that I have surprisingly high accumulate marks, why not get an A or A- for this

Opening the test paper I was in relief

as everything was just as the lecturer tipped us

now all I need to do is drag out my slides

and write down the correct information for the respective question

easy, isn't it?

The first question was regarding the Reason's Swiss Chess Model

an easy one as long as I have the reference

so while I flip through my slides

I can't help to think

"Hey, where is it?"

As you can imagine until this point

my slide on this chapter was gone

God Dammit

I couldn't find where I put the slide and I kept on flipping through the whole stack

my girlfriend later on asked me after the exam

why I was so free to sit down flipping my slides

what she didn't know is that I was flipping it HARD 

I basically panicked and did not know what to do

Well

Four question 25% each

So I'm kinda threw my 25% out of the window

probably land on a cat 

and got ran over by cars few dozen times

What can I do?

I do what I do best

Crapped as hard as I can for that section

trying to recall every single details I remember

This is a lesson to all the kids out there

Even though you have an open book exam, don't forget that you'll still need to study your materials!

and to think that I was joking to my friends that you don't need to study open book exam since you're bringing in the materials anyways (laugh/sigh)

The whole three hour was a pain in the ass, literally

My seat wasn't comfortable

My stomach was growling

I feel like going to the toilet thanks to the cold room

and my arm was falling off

For that God DAaaaAmn three hours, my hand did not stop writing at all

Four question is no joke considering how much you need to write.

In the end

I finished my paper just right before the time ran out

and I don't even have enough time to go through them again

but thankfully I wasn't the only one

seeing other peers and friends look dead to me in the eye 

I basically know that this is it

I won't ace this paper

but I guess I won't fail it either

considering how much I've wrote

Oh well

One down, one more to go

My last paper of my degree life next Tuesday

Please be nice.

You'll know who is the hardcore one when they bring a huge textbook for the exam, thicker than your skull.

24 April 2015

Just came back from a dinner with a close friend, Raymond

one thing I like going out to have dinner with Raymond is that the conversation we always have

I like how we talk about ideas, concepts, incidents, and stories

It's hard to find someone that reminds me of..me

So I have been thinking while I was driving back

There are really a lot of things/projects that I want to do

and I guess I shouldn't wait till I get my own place and my own PC to start 

Things should start now

slowly and steadily

I should do something at this very moment

As I was trying to construct my Memory Palace

I can't help to think how to effectively construct it

I have no idea how things should be organized in my head

All along I've been organizing them in a folder view

Should I continue to do so?

Wouldn't it be easier?

Or should I just start my own way

like creating a web, where information are interconnected

String together using some algorithm and codes

or even remember them like a branch

where a general information as the root, and branching out as things get more detail

That should be interesting

Perhaps I should try them out

It's quite unbelievable that I'll be flying off the US just in few weeks time

Everything is so...unreal to me

I need to think

Time is ticking, and time is running out. I shouldn't wait too long.

22 April 2015

Getting stuff done is one of the best feeling you can get during the hectic period

Pretty happy I got rid of these errands as I marked my check-list

and to think that I've gone through so much stuff just to finish them off

New Spec

Hair Cut

Fix the stupid Car

yeah I kinda feel bad because all those money spent on it

but I guess it is better to get them done, rather than spend more money to fix them in the future

Truth to be told, the car broke down at a most awkward moment

If only it can survive for another month

it wouldn't be part of my problem (laugh)

Anyways

I'm officially hooked onto Professor Layton and Ace Attorney series

They are really awesome and addictive

and I''m glad I'm introduced to them by a close friend of mine

It has really been quite some time since I'm so into a particular game

These two (or, this. Since the one I'm currently playing is Professor Layton vs Phoenix Wright) really interested me and got me hooked

Now is to hunt for the other games

Yeah

I played till nearly 5am in the morning last night

and I highly doubt today will be any different

I am so gonna be sleep deprived

Exam is coming

and I really need to study

and yet I'm addicted to this game of mine

Shit

Lets just hope all is well

and I'll be able to survive this mess that I've created for myself

Drink more water if you know you're going to be sleep deprived!

20 April 2015

Its so strange when you have so many ideas to write about before you on your browser

But then everything just gone blank the moment you open it. Seriously?

Anyways few things to update

(After moments and moments of recalling)

Here goes

I have decided to open up myself more emotionally. 

No I'm not gay or whatsoever

Its just that I believe i have been repressing myself emotionally a lot

And not willing to try out new books, games, shows fearing it my affect me emotionally

I always have that fear of doing so

Now I guess I should start appreciating them

So I'm gona give them a try

And hopefully able to change me into a better person.

Currently in the middle of clearing my stuff, and moving out.

I realized I really got a lot of junk in my room. 

A lot of unnecessary stuff pilling here and there.

Lets hope I don't repeat the same mistake when I come back.

Speaking of coming back

I have tons of stuff to deal with

And mum is pressuring me to get a "professional job"

Not sure exactly what is it.

To be honest I'm terrified now

Of a lot of things

I just hope one day I can think back

And wonder why I was so scared to begin with

15 April 2015

Surprisingly I have been posting for the past few days

I guess this always happen..like a honeymoon period with your first start up blog

"first start up blog", hahaha...no

Another issue settled, now I am a free man

or at least, a free-er man

bid good bye to my boss and colleague, I guess this is it, it?

After three - four months of working at Lafayette

I think I really learned a lot

Learned things that you won't be able to learn from your textbooks, and things that your lecturer will never mention in class

It was tiring, and the pay wasn't that great either 

but I guess in the end it is the journey that makes it count

Speaking of which,

Jake is/was keen to hire me once I'm back in Malaysia

That is something I really have to ponder on

Yeah I know I like working there, making coffee and serving customers make me happy

but there are still tons of other consideration for me

and I don't think those two are really the deal breaker

I'm really not sure about it

Well

I guess I have all the time to think of

and I can think of it while I'm in USA

I just hope that the cafe will be still around while I'm back

maybe then I can pay them a visit or something

working there..?

We'll see

A must-take-pic before leaving this place 

14 April 2015

I guess that is it?

Three (and a extra semester) years of degree in HELP and I'm done with all the classes.

Finished my last day of class with final presentation

Can't really describe my feeling now

am I happy, sad, relieved?

I'm not really sure

One thing I know is today mark an end for one thing

and I guess tomorrow I'll mark another 

but I guess its time to move on

Time is ticking and somehow we can't afford to just sit down and wait for too long

I think I'll need to prepare for my finals then.

credits to random uncle in my photo

13 April 2015

I never realized how much I'll think about this, but I guess it's a part of growing up.

I have been thinking a lot about finding a job recently.

or a career..?

I don't really know what I'll do in the future, and as a Jack of All Trade, I'm really a master of none.

I don't really know where my interest lies, and I don't really know what I REALLY like.

I think I'm so flexible, that I can basically do anything.

Well, I do have few options at the moment, and for that I'm really glad.

They act more like a safety net for me to be honest, and who knows? Maybe I'll just fall onto one of them.

Jake has offered me to be his manager at the cafe

Although thats something quite interesting to take up

To see the shit stuff he has been through really put me off

besides

I don't really want to deal with those bosses

haha

Oh well

It is an interesting offer, I'm keeping my options open at the moment

And then again there are event managing

Well..........

*sigh*

That probably gonna be at the bottom of the list.

Finally we have tutoring

Honestly I'm not really sure if I want to work at my Uni after hearing all those stuff

I guess if academic is my thing, I can always try out other institutions, right?

I mean come on, Taylor was looking for a lecturer...right?

Deep down I know that with all these choices, I'm still afraid. 

I am afraid I won't be able to come back, although statistically speaking it is really, really low

I guess I'm just fear of the unknown then.

Fear of the unexpected, not knowing when it'll strike me when I grid a bit looser

Let's just hope for the best, and prepare for the worst.